Why can’t I fall asleep?
All of the things that need to be done
All of the things I WANT to be done
Who am I now? Have I made the most of my life so far? What would 21 year old me say? 18? No, 16? Okay well, 15? 12? 10? Whats happened and what’s changed? What if my what ifs had come true- would I have lost more than I’d gained?
Am I remotely close to who I envisioned being at this age when I was less than half it? When I used to sit around and try to map it. All these thoughts spinning and winning- the race of me against myself. Am Iiving it, or is this another life placed on the shelf.